Thus ended the adventure. An adventure in vain that they should not have done. if you know the end of the adventure was only feels remorse that will never be erased in the liver. Also leaves a sense of guilt to his wife and family.
 adventure I mean is something foolish, pursuing self-indulgence, and rigging the rights and obligations to his wife and family. Yes exactly since the status of civil servants pull this earthly so strong. I'm drowning in personal pleasure that much of the value of benefits to the family. Attributes (Civil Affairs Officer) actually made me negligent. One is the presence of women dream of them is the presence of women craving other. I let him come through the door that was supposed allegiance only to his wife. Perhaps the temptation that is the starting point for the emergence of the seeds of hatred wife and family. I was driven out of the neighborhood should I ayumi. I alienated among those who should I give livelihood.
 I know that what I did was largely wrong. But, surprisingly I did not have the consciousness to leave them. I'm not strong enough to resist temptation. At first, I just defended from that temptation it is sunatullah, hand lines to live. However, when it comes to mind is indifference. Even if the household ends too, did not become a problem. After all, with my status as a (civil servant) still has a lot of possibilities to find another woman.
However, the seeds of hatred wife and family was not visited on divorce. Though by holding grudges and shame in the eyes of the community, his wife and family are still a bit da accept. It was beyond my guess. They are still patiently wait for God's mercy that I got the guidance of His. whereas, many times betrayal to his wife so clearly. Abandoned children that they should be proud to have a father. And all the family, the community until the office environment was already know. Even the "threat" mutator and stagnated promotion does not make me wary.
 Now, when my age is getting dusk still has a wife and family received me and made me more sorry. Moreover, women who stopped momentarily in my life just chasing sheer material. It's a novelty that only waste energy, time, also matter. I happened to tag includes charity here, because I'm sure this is a mistake and certainly amak kindness was reduced.
 Still in receipt wife and family, clearly shows their moral glory. Though, to be honest I admit there are fears in the age of no longer young. Old to me allotments age for me allotments age dwindle. Lives waited for his death. If they do not accept me, I do not know who is going to take care of my death someday. Moreover, I do not have relatives. if any had, it was limited to "have" but not to each matter. Because, they have been embarrassed by keburukanku. Alienate me.
 Now, I Beru awakened. What am I doing so far is only a form of bankruptcy alone. Indeed, Allah have mercy incredible. I was given the opportunity to improve themselves. Improve the quality of my relationship with God and family. While the share of the age that no longer term, "back" to God that now I think most appropriate. Begged forgiveness and to ask forgiveness for all the sins and wrong to his wife and family.
Repent. (Hamba Allah Sragen)

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